It's like the world came crashing down again.

It's different this time round because nobody's here to shelter me from the crashing world.

It's not the same anymore 'cause i'm no longer holding back and i'm no longer staying strong,

i'm just letting the world crash on me.

I'm all alone, i'm the only one who is broken.

I hate lying to myself and everyone around me.

I told everyone i've moved on, i'm way past the heartbroken stage.

How exhausting, how tiring it is to put up a strong front, to keep the smile up at all times.

I'm fatigued from all the acts, i'm just letting the world crash on me..

C said "Such cruel facts are meant to help you move on."

Really? Must i go through all these pain to move on? One has no idea how much pain i went through when we just broke up. I woke up crying, i went to sleep in tears. It's like nothing matters anymore and i just wanna die. The intensity of those pain was more than excruciating. No exact word seems apt to describe that kinda pain. And now i have to go through hell alive again, trying to move on. What hurts the most is he'll never feel my pain, he'll never understand how it feels to be abandoned 'cause he was the one who walked out of my life. All the promises, all the vows came down to nothing. If promises are meant to be broken and vows are meant to be shattered that easily, how am i going to put any trust on someone ever again?

You don't remember, you don't remember us anymore. You don't remember how you used to make me laugh, how you used to brighten my day with your most beautiful smile. You don't remember those late night conversations we had. You don't remember all the posts we wrote for each other. You don't remember us three snuggling on bed. You don't remember my favourite food anymore. You don't remember all those games we played and you'd give in to me every single time 'cause nothing beats the feeling of planting a smile on my face. You don't remember how you used to think we're meant for each other.

I know it's time to move on because,

at the end of the day, after buckets of tears, both of you will still be together and i will still be alone waiting for nothing. Right, nothing and nothing stays, nothing is not going to change.

You made me doubt myself, you made me doubt my worth,

you made me feel useless, worthless, ugly and sad.