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2011-06-18T12:29:00.002+08:00

Howdy howdy

How is it going for everyone?

I miss everyone in singapore so so so much.

It's hell fun here! I'm so deprived of sleep since day 1 in states.

Well, whatever. I can't really do a proper post now. I'll update really soon.

My dear family&friends, just stay safe and all good ok?

Love,

Kelly

Post Created May 14, 2011 3:45:54 AM

2011-05-14T03:46:00.001+08:00

Tearing...

2:01am

2011-05-11T02:38:00.001+08:00

Ok so all the papers all over, like FINALLY! I think I've put in a decent amount of effort this semester and I hope the efforts will be paid off somehow.....:)

So, I've been spending a lot of time with my family(chloe, especially), the girls and all:) I had dinner with the couzs days back then it was party and chills with vina and jiaying! It was really fun although we spent most of the time outside the club. We just sat by the bridge, talked and spewed profanities as usual. Also, girls and I went to barrage few days back and we really had fun! It was nothing much actually. We sat on the mat vina and jiaying bought, ate non stop(sushi platter, spicy nuggets and all), twister-ed and we just talked. I love talking to the girls, we can talk about anything under the sun or rather, moon. Often, we just blabbered nonsense, made fun of each other but there are times when we stopped fooling around and listened to each other when needed:) I love such times:) No alcohol, no sticks, no nothing just the girls:)

Ok...so, I'm leaving Singapore in 4 days' time! I am already missing everyone now. I'll be activating my msn account so it'll be easier for me to keep in contact with everyone. &with iphone, I can whatsapp and viber when I'm home in the states so it should be pretty convenient to keep in touch with everyone!:) I'm thankful for iphone! Everything's awesome about iphone man:D

And I'm actually kinda thankful for this trip. Although i'm only be in the states for only 3 months, I'll know who stays eventually when I'm back. Seriously now, i don't even know who's speaking the truth, and who's feeling real. There's only one thing I know about guys, they are natural liars. I was so so so so hurt few months back and i'll never land myself in that kinda state ever again. Well..hopefully time will prove me wrong and we shall see when I'm back.

You'll stay if what you feel is real:)

Heh ok lovely week ahead for me I guess:)

Wed(tomorrow): Beastly with the guys, then LD for some serious club hop, I haven't been to LD since I transformed into an almost full-time geek 4 months back.
Thurs: Shopping with mommy then hotel buffet with family!
Friday: Brunch at Choupinette with the lovely jc babies and dinz with the rest at night:)
Saturday: Going to the prayers with carol, then to my Aunt's for the usual family gathering and BBQ, then home with family:) Mom's whipping up my favourite dishes! I love her:) &Mel's staying overrrrrrr!
Sunday: Flight to US.

Till then, have a great week ahead y'all! Good night!

2011-05-03T16:36:00.003+08:00

"You don't need water to feel like you're drowning, do you?"

2011-04-13T10:14:00.006+08:00

It's like the world came crashing down again.

It's different this time round because nobody's here to shelter me from the crashing world.

It's not the same anymore 'cause i'm no longer holding back and i'm no longer staying strong,

i'm just letting the world crash on me.

I'm all alone, i'm the only one who is broken.

I hate lying to myself and everyone around me.

I told everyone i've moved on, i'm way past the heartbroken stage.

How exhausting, how tiring it is to put up a strong front, to keep the smile up at all times.

I'm fatigued from all the acts, i'm just letting the world crash on me..

C said "Such cruel facts are meant to help you move on."

Really? Must i go through all these pain to move on? One has no idea how much pain i went through when we just broke up. I woke up crying, i went to sleep in tears. It's like nothing matters anymore and i just wanna die. The intensity of those pain was more than excruciating. No exact word seems apt to describe that kinda pain. And now i have to go through hell alive again, trying to move on. What hurts the most is he'll never feel my pain, he'll never understand how it feels to be abandoned 'cause he was the one who walked out of my life. All the promises, all the vows came down to nothing. If promises are meant to be broken and vows are meant to be shattered that easily, how am i going to put any trust on someone ever again?

You don't remember, you don't remember us anymore. You don't remember how you used to make me laugh, how you used to brighten my day with your most beautiful smile. You don't remember those late night conversations we had. You don't remember all the posts we wrote for each other. You don't remember us three snuggling on bed. You don't remember my favourite food anymore. You don't remember all those games we played and you'd give in to me every single time 'cause nothing beats the feeling of planting a smile on my face. You don't remember how you used to think we're meant for each other.

I know it's time to move on because,

at the end of the day, after buckets of tears, both of you will still be together and i will still be alone waiting for nothing. Right, nothing and nothing stays, nothing is not going to change.

You made me doubt myself, you made me doubt my worth,

you made me feel useless, worthless, ugly and sad.

2011-04-10T19:30:00.003+08:00

Go away you insecurities.

I hate not knowing how i feel.

I loathe not knowing how you feel.

2011-04-08T20:39:00.005+08:00

(wrote this yesterday but i forgot to publish the post heh)

Howdy y'all.

Right now, i'm stuck at home, guilt-stricken from the weekend parties lately. I suppose to be studying for my programming module now but the thought of today being a friday just pulled me away from the java codes and all. Anyone who knows me better would have known that i'll never study on a friday night. Right, so much for forcing myself to stay home >:(

Right...let's move on to a proper post.

So, my life has been really really boring and mundane and boring and mundane lately. The girls just came back from Korea and i'm feeling all green with envy. I wanna get outta the country and have fun too! Ok right, i'm leaving for America in a 4 weeks' time? HAHAHA just the thought of it is EXHILARATING, ok just exhilarating alone can be an understatement -- every bone in my body is simply screaming with excitement!!!! But well...living in a foreign country for a few months can be really tough too. I've lived in a household with a helper for all my life and living alone abroad is gonna be a huge change for me? Ok maybe not really alone because i'm going with carol. Tee-hee.

Going overseas with the best friend is really fucking awesome.

I can already see us:

making lunch together, and it's gonna be mostly chinese if we gonna cook 'cause we gonna be really sick of the steaks and fries every meal,

shoving the chores to each other, i think gonna pay carol to sweep the floor,

having those little pillow talks wearing the same peejays, yeah i forced carol to buy the same peejay i bought,

ogling at cute boys here and there ^^,

shopping like mad every single week,

planning different road trips every single week and

doing every possible lame stuff on earth together, carol even suggested doing a cooking video every time we make food HAHAHA

OK IT IS JUST GONNA BE ALL MELODRAMATIC AND FUN:D

Tee-hee. What's up for y'all this upcoming 3 months then? I hope it'll all be fun and cool!

Ok no more wordy post, time for pics:

fav soba

:>

2011-04-07T00:08:00.001+08:00

HAPPY LIKE DON'T KNOW WHAT

2011-03-28T19:47:00.002+08:00

I don't know how i feel anymore.

I'm happy that you're in this together with me.

I'm happy that you make me happy.

Then i wonder, what can i give you in return?

Anyway, i had a great weekend.

A whole list of drinks, broken glasses, overwhelming volume of profanities(as usual)

and a few sticks here and there.

Then here again, catching up with the girls over the dining table more or less sums up the perfect weekend.

Till then, have a great week sweethearts.

Can i take a peek into that stupid brain of yours?

2011-03-24T21:20:00.004+08:00

Underneath this layer of angst are tears and tears.

I'm hiding in the room crying my eyes out, fearful that mom/dad is gonna walk in the next second as the tears run down my face. It's sucha blow, again. It's like i'm feeling a heartbreak all over again. I've been telling myself that i've moved on repeatedly, over and over again, hoping that i'd come to believe it myself if i act as if i meant what i said. But no, whatever you're doing now just continuously overwrite what i've been telling myself.

Every single time i see you so posed, calm and happy, my heart stopped beating for a second. I gasped and painfully realised that i'm not over you, and you're over me.

Out of a sudden, i've lost all motivation to move forward or even pretend to move forward. I've tried to hard for 4 fucking months to only find myself still circling around you.

What should i do now? What's even left of me after you're gone?

I don't know

2011-03-20T03:38:00.001+08:00

Do you feel the same too?

2011-03-10T12:45:00.001+08:00

IT1002 sucks big time big time

fuck fuck fuck

2011-03-09T22:40:00.002+08:00

I'm done chasing after you. I'm totally done stalking you every now and then. I'm done making myself more depressed than ever seeing you walking away from me as the days past by. I'm done with all these shit. Right now, I just wanna be with the one who makes me smile.

Days will be better, without you and now, with him around.

2011-03-08T20:23:00.002+08:00

I wanna find that joy back

2011-03-08T20:17:00.001+08:00

What are words

if you don't really mean them

when you say them

What are words

if they are only for good times

then they don't

When it's love

yeah you say them out loud

Those words, they never go away

They live on, even when we're gone

2011-03-08T00:54:00.000+08:00

How can you get over me so soon?

I still can't believe...

what should I do

2011-03-04T15:26:00.001+08:00

The heartbreaking nights I've been going through seem so trivial to what is really happening now.

What do you do when you realize your life is falling apart? And there's nothing you can do about it...

Right....

2011-03-03T02:28:00.001+08:00

Let me get this straight, everyone has either moved on or gave up. I'm choosing to hold on. And this is exactly what a fool does.

For all I know, he's thinking about a different girl tonight. Dreaming about another girl. Falling head over heels again, for another girl. Right. Why am I still stuck here again?

kids nowadays

2011-03-01T21:18:00.003+08:00

Everyone sat around the dining table and...

Chloe: "Do you know that Angie has a boyfriend whose name is Joshua?"

Us: "Really?"

Chloe: "Yes. I have a boyfriend too. His name is Wee Hong. Lim Wee Hong."

Us: "Reallyyyy?"

Chloe: "Yes, he even kissed me 4 times today. and it's the 5th time he did that."

Us: "WHAT???"

~Chloe began to blush and act all shy like she always does~

Chloe: "He is really smart. He is already reading all the P2's textbooks. I really like him. We will visit the washroom together and he will always hold my hand tight, very very tight when we are out of the classroom."

Us: "What is his name again?"

Chloe: "LIM WEE HONG LIM WEE HONG"

As V said, how plausible is that?

:(

2011-02-27T11:01:00.001+08:00

do you even miss me? You're acting like I've never existed.

2011-02-26T00:04:00.004+08:00

Right, i'm staying in on a Friday night. Of course. Exams are nearing and this unknown guilt will always hit on me if i head out during crucial periods before the papers. Well..I can't wait for the mid terms to end and i'll:

do some serious serious shopping. My wardrobe is seriously seriously pathetic now. I don't even feel like browsing through the clothes 'cause they all look so ugly now. The only clothes i bother looking at are those casual wear i wear to school:( And mom has been nagging forever at me to get a new bag! I'll get one after exams!

attend the lame orientation organised by speedwing. It is totally lame but it's compulsory.

watch some good movies. I've been dying to watch No Strings Attached and Black Swan. But yep...exams. I used to LOVE watching movies till some stuff happened and i dreaded going to the theatres 'cause it is bound to bring up some sad and unwanted memories. I tried watching a comedy but i still end up feeling sad and wanting to leave the theatre asap. BUT, i'm fine now and a good movie is exactly what i need!

bring chloe to USS. Yes, she has been to USS once already but it wasn't with me!:( I gonna bring chloe to USS before i fly off to US and we'll visit far far away and watch shrek 4D though she already caught it THRICE but she still loves it! So do i!^^ Speaking of USS, i really miss that place! The first time i went, it was with everyone and it was so so so fun! Good times good times.......

find a clean beach in Singapore and snack the whole night away with whoever who wanna spend a boring night with me on the beach. Hahahahaha.

donate my old clothes to the salvation army. Ok i always have this problem of not willing to give my things away even though i don't need it anymore....my mom always tells me to give this top away, that dress to bla bla bla's daughter since i don't wear it anymore and i'll scream NO and protest. I'll argue that i needed that dress and i'll wear it on this ocassion/bla bla excuses i can think of. And the dress will end up somewhere in the wardrobe untouched, forever. Yep, so i gonna donate these clothes away. Settled.

find the hammies another cage. Not really another cage, i'll extend/expand the cage so they can live in a bigger house? Speaking of them, fluff and jac are really adorable and FAT now. I think they're the fattest hamsters on mother earth. Hahahaha! Jac always hole up at the second level of the cage in a really awkward position that makes him look like a ball. Hahaha!

make early plans for my 21st birthday. Afterall, i'll be out of town for 3 months and by the time i'm back, whatever plans for the birthday would be TOO late so yep, i need to start to plan for my 21st. Hee hee. Capella suite or Amara Sanctuary villa? I want some place with private plunge pool! I'm still out of ideas though, so wish me luck love.

forget you.

So, that's about it. Hehhhhh right now, i'm gonna make myself some supper to make myself happier for staying in tonight. Good night y'all!

count on me

2011-02-25T18:29:00.002+08:00

Can i count on you?

wide awake

2011-02-25T03:42:00.001+08:00

Oh dear yes I'm still wide awake now, at 3:22am. I thought I've moved past being nocturnal since this semester started more than a month ago? Oh well oh well. Anyway, life has been pretty mundane lately. It has been school, study, nus, mugging, late night revisions, libraries and everything else geekish. I haven't been spending time with chloe and hopefully I can make it up to her tomorrow by bringing her out and taking a short break from the macro micro stats and all. I really can't wait for this semester to end and get out of Singapore. I need a summer getaway like Blair and Serena! I'm really glad that everything that needs to be done for the US trip in May is already settled:) The air tickets, visa and all:) Okz maybe not all, 'cause we left a huge ass part undone--hotel bookings. Hahahaha! But we've already filtered the many hotels to a list to pick from! I really can't wait! &i really really really hope the baby girls would join me&carol for the Taiwan trip in August(just before the start of new semester)! Well, I didn't really had an awesome start to 2011 but I'll be really happy if things could go well for the rest of the year! Till then, have fun everyday everyone!

Good night.

pace

2011-02-24T15:23:00.001+08:00

I'm on my way to school to catch up with the study plans I have today. My to-do list is kinda short and stress free today. As usual, I'll be dealing with econs but it'll be just two term papers and I'll be done for the day! I'm actually feeling kinda happy today, not happy happy that kind, it's just that I'm not feeling sad and I'm happy for that! I like this pace, this pace I'm taking to move on, to move forward because I know I'm moving on for myself and not moving on to prove to you that I can.

Well, have a good day everyone:)

Hey

2011-02-24T02:39:00.001+08:00

I wish you'd know how much I'm missing you right now.

Why

2011-02-22T01:38:00.002+08:00

How can you move on so freakinggggggggg fast? Sigh, I need help here. It's just me alone now.

2011-02-16T22:18:00.004+08:00

I drafted out my study plan starting from tomorrow to my first paper. Suddenly, i'm feeling all stress up like i always do. I should be burying my head into the books and revisions now but i couldn't focus. I tried doing my lab assignment and i couldn't even complete it. I even had a hard time starting it. Sigh. I'm feeling all teary now and i don't know what to do. I'm starting to worry about the future, the hazy future ahead of me. I'm envious of peers and school mates around me who had all planned out, their career and their dreams. Me? My dreams? To be honest, after knowing theirs, i think my dream is too-shallow. I'm like a kid who hasn't grown up, who hasn't even grew out of sweets and candies when she should already have. I'm feeling afraid and i'm in all tears now because i'm scared. I'm scared that i couldn't live up to my parents' expectations. I'm scared, i'm feeling scared about being in this adult world, all alone. I know i haven't tried my hardest and i'm afraid too, to do so. I'm afraid of trying my best and to fail eventually. I'm afraid of realising the "limit" of my potential. I'm afraid to know that even after trying my best, i'll fail myself.

And I'm always feeling afraid but now i'm feeling more afraid that always because i've always had you beside me when i needed someone and now that you're gone, i'm just feeling afraid, alone.

#now playing lose my mind

2011-02-15T22:10:00.005+08:00

Hola hola hola

I had a really almost-perfect day today! Yep, almost.

It was so perfect UNTIL someone totally ruined it. I'm getting so many apologies from him but what's done cannot be undone and obviously, in our case, you can't undo what you said. I have to emphasize that I AM NOT ANGRY, i am just disappointed that you'd think of me that way, my so-called-friend.

Ok WHATEVER.

& i'm back to my almost-perfect day! Heh. What's better than getting two As for two graded assignments and.....something really happy happened! I AM JUST SO LUCKY I SWEAR. Hahahaha k lah i'm easily satisfied! I hope this week will go really well and i'm looking forward to the weekend at MBS.

Some polaroids to share:

Once again, EVERYTHING IS SO GREAT AND AWESOME:)

**update**

Okay i'm not so sure about this so-called almost-perfect day already. I don't know i just feel like, i just feel empty. Sigh i must be crazy.

2011-02-14T12:29:00.003+08:00

Where are You?

:'(

2011-02-14T12:29:00.001+08:00

I guess you had another direction. Time to move on, time to move on.

2011-02-09T00:30:00.002+08:00

Hey ho everyone!!!!!

I guess i'm back to lovemypunches for good! Hahaha i think i found my long-lost friend name "motivation" in 2011! So so so, i just had my medicine and i'm waiting for the after effects of it to kick in before i crash on my bed and snuggle with the patricks.

Well well well, zouk on last saturday with the randoms

Pics pics pics:

My face needa take a chill pill man...i needa stop snacking in the middle of the night!

check out couz's face: EPIC

We seriously can't think of any ways to make ourselves look prettier! HAHAHA

look at my couz's face again : TOTALLY EPIC

Ok that's all for the night!

Gonna hit the sack soon! Night night everyoneeeeee!

Toodles

2011-02-06T22:45:00.002+08:00

Hey ho!

I just got home from my aunt's! How's ang pao collecting everyone? Hee hee. One thing i love about cny is everyone gathering together and having fun(over the gambling tables lol). I've been having so much fun this whole week and i totally totally totally neglected my school work. I'm 1 tutorial behind schedule, i haven't start on my group project yet and not to mention that i'm 2 webcasts behind schedule too. Oh wellzzzzzzz, school totally suck!

&&i really need one decent organiser!!! I know it seems too late for a 2011 organiser but i really need one and I AM GETTING ONE by this week. I've been eyeing on this pink and chic organiser and it'll be mine by the end of this week. Hee hee. I'm also excited about getting a new squash racquet(hopefully by this week too). I've so much to do this week, so good luck to me and good luck to everyone else too!

Till then, have fun during this cny period everyone!

Toodles.

2011-02-04T00:37:00.003+08:00

HELLOOOOOOOOOOO

Happy Lunar New Year folks

May everyone get many red packets this year!

Stay healthy and alive k?!

HUAT AH

2011-01-30T21:20:00.003+08:00

Howdy earthlings of 2011! How're things going for y'all so far?

Me? Life is happier(finally i know!!!) and busier ever since the new semester starts! Ok i still feel the l-blues from time to time and the feeling of loneliness and emptiness are still somewhere stuck in my lil head but things have already got better and they will be better and better! CNY is coming and believe it or not, i haven't gotten many apparels yet!

***H.E.L.P***

I gonna do some last minute shopping tomorrow and hopefully....ok no hopefully, no expectations no nothing! I'm just gonna try my luck tomorrow and i'll update on twitter if i get anything, like finally?

Ok just gna post some of the pictures about my life for the past few weeks?

My first flea with the babies in 2011(or ever...)

Wednesday spells......

(L)Chloe baby(L)

Yep introducing the new member of the household:

FLUFF!!!!! Of course, there's Jac too but he kept running about and it's harder than whatever to even snap a proper picture of him?

Mel sweetie

Ning darling who came back from Aussie!!!:)

Thats about it? I gonna crash my bed soon and y'all do the same too k.

Night night toodles!

2011-01-12T03:04:00.001+08:00

It has been a long day. It feels like I woke up on the wrong side of the bed and the series of misfortune start rolling in. The long and exhausting day did drained me out. It drained out every possible positive thought I have in mind. It sucked in every ounce of strength I kept within me to fight with those waves of sadness that hit me every day. I've been strong these days. I guess it's time for me to set aside that mask and just be me for the night. I just want to be sad tonight and not have to pretend that I'm not. It has been hard, it has been so hard so hard...

2010-12-21T18:58:00.001+08:00

What's so fucking interesting about my life you want to know? I'm nothing more than a broken girl who wish to be left alone.

Something about me: I've great parents, wonderful sisters, an adorable maid, two new cute hammies about to join our family, awesome cousins, great friends and I love this someone who no longer will love me back. This is me and my fucking life. I hate it when people ask me if I'm okay. I'm obviously NOT okay if not you won't be asking that very question. It's amazing how you thought you knew someone only to realize than he's nothing more than a stranger. I feel so fucking alone everyday. My calendar for the month is fully packed, I'm always occupied every single day but the feeling of loneliness never goes away. And I doubt it'll ever go away.

2010-12-19T21:33:00.002+08:00

From time to time, people around me makes my days a tad better but the feeling of emptiness is always there. I'll still go to bed every night wetting my pillow. Lois is trying hard to knock some sense into me now and every word he said is extremely hurtful. I really don't wish to give up but i can't hold on any longer, it's draining whatever that is left of me now. I can't do this alone.

:'(

2010-12-14T20:44:00.002+08:00

What I miss most is going to ikea with you, acting like we were married.

2010-12-13T11:36:00.002+08:00

I wish..

I wish i was the one who left rather than the one being left behind. I'd rather sacrifice all these happy memories than to have them haunt me every single day. I wish i could take it that easy like you did. But i can't, it's hard to give up on something you love, really. I thought i've past this heartbroken stage until i saw you again. It feels like all the feelings are back again. I can feel all the sadness rushing back to me like a tidal wave. I thought i'm getting good at this, at hiding my feelings only to realise, i suck at it...

2010-12-11T11:15:00.003+08:00

2010-12-06T23:36:00.002+08:00

Reality is what that makes me want to move on. Reality is that you don't love me anymore.

2010-12-06T01:16:00.002+08:00

Hey hi to whoever who are still awake:)

I've this urge to blog the entire day and here I am blogging but i'm lost for words suddenly.

Ok...

As many have already know, my life sorta hit a rough patch and I handled it quite badly the past 5 weeks. Can you imagine crying every single day and having to let my 5 years old sister console me almost every day? Sigh. But, I've slowly come to terms that he's gone and outta my life. I no longer have a part to play in his life and I'm no longer the reason for his smile. As much as I want him back in my life, I respect his choice of walking out of mine. As much as I want to talk to him, I know he's happy without me and I have to let him go and he's already gone. I just need time. In the meanwhile, he'll continue moving on with his life while I try to put pieces of me back together and we'll all catch up in time! Till then, maybe we can still be friends. Maybe I should stop being so defensive and I should stop pushing others away and let them into my life....who knows things will work out eventually and I'll learn that he's just another someone from my past...

2010-12-05T00:00:00.002+08:00

I miss you badly. Sadly, I can't do anything about it and you won't do anything about it. So, how's life without me? Life sucks without you anyway.

2010-12-03T20:56:00.002+08:00

Howdy howdy. I bet all must be out chilling, partying or doing something exciting on a friday night! I've been having the runs all day and what beats having a diarrhoea, flu and a cough all at once?! I've been popping medicine pills for 3 whole months and the body just doesn't get better i don't know why. Sigh. Anyway, i've been watching smallville ever since the term break starts and it is totally awesome! I think Tom Welling(male lead of smallville) bears a huge resemblance to Ian Somerhalder(male lead of vampire diaries)! They look so hot anyway.

Whoopiez may be hitting sentosa with the couzies tomorrow/still undecided. Hope it'll be fun.

K. I miss you still.

happy birthday babygirl

2010-12-03T00:13:00.004+08:00

Happy birthday vina girl:)

Girls and i planned a surprise but FAILED badly hahahaha totally kns but glad that my girl still enjoyed herself for the night (V)

zouk

sup grumpy birthday girl

Oh yeah i lost weight everyone! Hahahaha! I'm now at 41kg(was 43 initially). Everyone is saying that my face sunk down a lot and it doesn't really look good:( Sighzzzzz

girlssss

love this pic lala

smoochy honey

hoshy gone gone gone~

lol wtf i can't stand hosh!!!!!! hahahahahahahahahahaha!

Hahaha finally done with the pics! Choooo happy!

Anyway, i caught Easy A today. It was totally boring lor. Carol and i nearly fell asleep but we didn't--been munching on popcorn chicky bites YEAH that was what that kept us awake. Owell....and i want to catch Rapunzel so much. Sighzzzz i want to catch it with him but i know that's not gonna happen. Whatever.

Gonna inhale my daily dosage of smallville now bye!

2010-12-01T23:29:00.002+08:00

My favourite girl as always:)

updates

2010-11-30T19:49:00.002+08:00

OKAY LIFE IS STILL AS DEPRESSING AS EVER.

But at least there are no more exams, no more checking of seat numbers, no more lecture notes and revision papers. O'well...I just expressed my interest for this new job. Ok not that i'm interested in the job but i just want to kill all the free time i have in Dec! Now life without him and school, I think i've got all the time in the world. Now that i've mentioned him, i'm feeling even more depressed again. Thinking about how we both got together tickles me though. How we even got together when we barely knew each other. Ya it is crazy but i always thought that we could get together without even knowing each other completely is just...fated. The feeling he gave me just tells me that he is The One and i have to be with him. Sigh. But now that we've broken up and he may already be in love with another or already dating another girl(i wouldn't know). I still love him but i'm just not the perfect girl he's looking for. Tears are welling up AGAIN. I gonna stop this post and post some pictures tomorrow.

Life gonna get better i hope.

2010-11-26T23:44:00.004+08:00

I've been home all day. Just thinking about us. I've thought so much. Recalling the past, thinking about how we met, how he first talk to me, how he first mischievously got me to be his girlfriend. How cute he was. He's totally the type of guy I'd pray to God everyday hoping that he'll marry me one day. We've been together for 16 months. Despite the quarrels and bickering, it was totally sweet and I was totally happy. But, how bad was I back then. I took him for granted. I wanted more time with friends and always thinking that he'll be there no matter what. But he proved me wrong this time. He left. He doesn't know how guilt-stricken I am. How mad I am for allowing myself to lose him. I regretted everything. Given a choice, I'll still want him back. I'll still say yes if he asks me to be his girlfriend. I totally hate myself hate all my actions. I totally hate life without him. But I can't want him back, he told me he's truly happy without me and I figured he's being truthful. The man of my life, I can't imagine how life would be without him. The man of my life.

Maybe someday, someday I'll figure out that the happy ending isn't forever and always, it's just us moving on. I mean everyone has got their share of pain and happiness to go through in life and maybe you're just part of the pain I've to experience in life. Maybe someday, someday someone can convince me that I should move on. Maybe someday, someday I'll stop loving you. Maybe someday.

2010-11-26T21:12:00.002+08:00

I should just stay home forever and stop dampening everyone's mood. Sorry my friends.

2010-11-26T19:48:00.001+08:00

I wish God could just erase my memories, our memories.

I've never been worse. I think I'm better off dead.

20

2010-10-04T13:53:00.003+08:00

Ok i turned 20 today! I wish nobody would bring this up but ALMOST everyone mentioned it over the birthday texts.............urgh

I also h8 it that i've to stay home for e-tutorials today! whaturf..........and daddy postponed my bday dinner to thursday NICE today kinda sucks i prefer yesterday or the day before when i'm still enjoying myself w the girls and my boy sighzzzzzz

On a happier note, i went to pet safari yesterday again!!! I love puppies i love dogs really wish i can get one but it seems that my mom will literally kill herself if i ever bring a pup home. Every year, i wish for nothing but my family to be in pink of health, my friends to stay happy always, me to get good grades and A PUP! I love toy poodles, japanese spitz and westie.......sighzzzz

ok gna bathe and pick chloe bye

hi!

2010-09-22T20:43:00.002+08:00

Came back for my neglected blog hoho.

Am now TOTALLY drained from the math past year papers...mm dk why i took this math module to torture myself zz. It's mooncake festival today, i wonder how did everyone spend it? Me...stayed home for papers and played a lil' with fam with the candles and every year mooncake festiv thingy. I wanted to jog today but it was pouring the WHOLE DAY sigh needa relieve these stress!!!!!! Hopefully the weather tmr will permit me for some jogging! I NEED SOME CATHARTIC JOG OR I'LL GO CRAZY SIGH

Waiting for my lumix to sync with my mac....pictures up on the blog/fb soon!

2010-09-18T14:13:00.002+08:00

Feeling damn sad upon knowing that i got C+ for my most recent assignment--the assignment that takes up 20% of my grade for this module. Expectations expectations...shouldn't expect so much from myself cause' i am certainly not up to standard for anything..........

bored in lecture

2010-09-17T21:16:00.000+08:00

Ok I'm sooooo bored in lecture that I downloaded this blog app to blog! Aw okay speaking of school reminds me of the mid terms on the week after next! I still haven't start doing those mock exam papers, memorizing the notes etc. I must start being disciplined! zz ok no mood to blog already bye peeps:(

2010-09-02T20:03:00.002+08:00

Some random photos:

Hello the abandoned space!

I'm like supa bored now. I'm done with my gek report-sort of lah. I still gonna edit it everyday and TRY to perfect it before the deadline. Econs tutorial is done too! URGH why am i only talking about tutorials? MY LIFEEEEEE y'all know already--bored and mundane mundane and bored. Alright, i'll try to sum up my life these few missing weeks. There was school and it was stressful! Carol and i were dying, dying to score and therefore dying before scoring. Hahahahaha if you know what i'm talking about. Zouk last week with the girls was AMAZING. IT WAS FUN AND AWESOME AND FUN AND AWESOME! Pictures on facebook soon!^^ Oh yes, and i went Universal Studios, Singapore! The company was fabulous so of course the trip was as fab too!(: That was about all? I can't really think of much, like i said--life was boring and mundane.

Mumsy is out for mj again. I hate it when she does that but well....she has her own activities and stuff. I can't possibly expect her to coop herself at home with me. Boooo.

&&i seriously need to trim my brows! Vina's expression was totally...when i lift up my fringe hahahahahhaa school sucks:( School is depriving me of many things! Urgh and i need a nice mani pedi and facial session! WHEN WHEN WHEN! I gonna do up my timetable for this month soon and see how i can squeeze some time out!

Okay that's about all folks. Have a fun week ahead!

July'10

2010-07-23T11:02:00.004+08:00

July oh july. It has been a stressful month. Really.Stressful.

I really wonder when will this ocean of stress evaporate.

Nevertheless, the lovelies have been really sweet and encouraging:) Some of the problems have some sort been solved, i hope. So....

A Big Thank You To The Baby Girls.

Hoshy's 21st is coming up too! Pop Art Themed Party. I've got no clothes to match her birthday theme!:( Hopefully, i'll get some clothes with vina and hosh later. &there is this Brunch Cafe i'm dying to try! Jones The Grocer. Just imagine a lazy Sunday morning spent having brunch/ all-day breakfasts and a cup of Earl Grey to perk up the noon! It'd be awesome!

Alright, some picures to share before i end this post:

Zouk

Vina and i

Jiaying came along!

I got myself kinda tipys that night and swallowed the gum i was chewing zzzz &vina said it gonna take approximately 4 to 5 years for it to be digested. Damn. Alright, toodles folks. Have a great friday night!

fmlx2

2010-07-21T22:11:00.000+08:00

STRESSEDUP

much worse

2010-07-15T21:29:00.002+08:00

TODAY WAS WORSE.

Things that made me depressed yesterday wasn't quite the SAME things that affected me today. I had an awful day. Awful enough to honour my day with an award that states "Most Awful Day In 2010". Sigh. I felt so helpless and hopeless when it hit me, viciously hard. I felt as if someone had pulled me across a bed of razor blades, over and over again. I cringed up somewhere in school and had a long cry until my eyes became tired and signalled me to head home.

Sigh. I wish i had a friend who has the ability to predict future and tell me what i'll be. The uncertainty is killing me, killing every cell in my body.

self-esteem issues

2010-07-13T21:16:00.003+08:00

Howdy everyone.

Well, i can't believe that the three months holidays gonna end in a flash. I love holidays. How's yours? I'm pretty glad that i've utilised my holidays well enough-with family, friends and boyfriend. 'Dear God' is currently on itunes. It's one of my favourites though it's kinda old, as in the song is out for reallyyyy long. It's by Avenged Sevenfold(in case you guys don't know!). Oh yeah, back to the holidays, they're ending really soon and that means school's starting again. I hate school. I dislike bidding for modules. I loath deciding what i am gonna major in-i haven't yet decide. I am always pretty sure of myself until IT hit me. Sigh.

&i'm having serious problems with my self-esteem lately. I think i need a plastic surgery. Everything on me is so imperfect.
To the girl in the mirror, you're seriously irritating me.

Also, my maid went home for a short 2 weeks holiday last week. Her non existence in the house made me realised how dependent i am on her-on every maid in fact. I tried to do some chores when Mom&Dad are not in. I tried washing the dishes and my fingers hurt like some mfker. I am TOTALLY retarded with the washing machine. I made my bed for the first ever time(this is easy though). I cooked instant noodles as lunch for my litter sister, yeah fuck. I made efforts to clean up the dolls in the glass cabinet and broke into tears because i think it was too taxing?!(may be due to the periods too, i tear pretty easily when im having my periods, mood swings and all) SIGH i miss you, rina:(

On a happier note, i caught Eclipse recently. It was awesome, in fact, much more than awesome. I love the book itself and i love the film. I adore how Meyer wrote about Ed and Bel, their love and the hope she brought to it. "I want you. I want you forever. A lifetime is not enough." I love you, Stephanie Meyer:)

Sigh, okay, the self-esteem issues still suck. Whatever. I am gonna end this post, good night folks:(

2010-07-11T13:54:00.003+08:00

It's taking forever to upload the pictures to photobucket!

Random photos from aus:

I've been saving up for something awesome! Bet you will love it!:)

2010-07-11T12:20:00.001+08:00

I THINK MY BLOG IS SO DEAD\\\\\\\\\\\\

work

2010-06-29T22:23:00.002+08:00

Urgh i am working tomorrow. I dreaddddd work:( BUT it's only a two and a half DAY job! Roadshow. Another do-nothing job. 300 bucks(basic pay excluding commission) for 2.5 days.....okay it's worth it! Worth it worth it..gotta keep telling myself this for i'll needa survive through these 2.5 days.

I caught two movies with luke yesterday. She's out of my league and Karate kid. Both are nice! Y'all should catch it! I am a duper-movie person, and these two weeks to Aussie made me feel that i've missed out a hell load of good movies. And Karate kid was only left with ONE slot when we caught it yesterday! Thanks god we're in time for that! Hoho, and it will be Knight and Day and ECLIPSE next!!!! I've been waiting for ECLIPSE since forever! Finally!:) And vina has been trying to convince me to catch some thai horror, temple or whatever shit. Damn. Thai horror......urgh

Okay imma catch some sleep to look good for tomorrow! Good night!

Life

2010-06-28T23:31:00.001+08:00

Did i mention how awesome life is lately? Simply fantastic. It is great in Aussie and fantastic back in Singa.

I love my life

I'M BACK!!!!

2010-06-27T21:24:00.001+08:00

HOWDY EVERYBODY! I'M BACK FROM AUSSIE! Hoho that 12/13 days were AWESOME!!! I love the weather, sydney, goldcoast and everything else! Except for the fact that the waiters never fail to cock up our orders! LIKE SERIOUSLY! Heh, and i hope i didn't miss out anything great during this 2 weeks! Ohhhh, and singa flooded ayeee?! That's almost the first thing everyone told me after i'm back! LOL

&i'm having serious time lag problems!:( I have been waking up at 5am and sleeping at 10pm. BUT NOT TONIGHT cause' i am catching the match between Germany and England! Germany better scoreeeeee! I placed bets on a draw and germany scoring one. LOL

Okay, some random pictures taken in June:

Early June: Jing's thank you party

Last ladies' night before i went Aussie:

Last meet up with the animals before i went aussie

Kay gna go edit those photos taken in Aus! GOOD NIGHT ALL!^^

Snow City with Chloe

2010-06-08T19:30:00.003+08:00

Short post. Sick now:(

As promised, i took Chloe to snow city last month! Hoho! I went to fetch this lil' monster from school with rina then to snow city via science centre!

Happy darling

MACDONALDS for lunch first!^^

funny faces

love love

the sun was effing glaring and we kinda almost-lost our way there gr

BUT HERE WE ARE! FINALLYYYYY

Bought the tickets, changed and brought the excited chloe it but she ended up crying!:( She said she's afraid that she might freeze to death inside=.= Rina and i had a hard time comforting her!

AND WE SUCCEEDED! HEHE had a fun day with rina&chloe. And our great evening ended with dad&mom who fetched us for dinner!:)

too old to club

2010-05-27T00:32:00.002+08:00

STEVE AOKI NIGHT WAS MAD CRAZY

CONCLUSION: TOO OLD TO CLUB. Can never squeeze our ways through the crowd like before:(

Being 20 sucks, don't feel like celebrating my 20th this year

my friend is drunk

2010-05-23T15:05:00.003+08:00

I always think Sundays are best spent at home! It's best to "recuperate" at home after the mad, crazy and often intoxicated weekends! Hahahhaa but it has been like 2weeks(close to) since i last clubbed! The last time was when aoki came to zouk to spin! Did i mention the crowd was fcking mad??? The one when avb came wasn't that crazy as well! I shall leave the details to the aoki post!

Hohoho and i bought quite a couple of apparels these two weeks! Damn happy! One maxi from River Island, two from miss selfridge, a top from new look and another from rockstar. HEHE but i haven't yet found the patterned stockings i want! Zee zee. &PICNIC WITH THE GIRLS YESTERDAY WAS DAMN AWESOME! Pictures up soon!:):):)

Well....nevermind!

Here are pictures from my first ladies night since the holidays started! Hoho.

Cabz

Nothing much. Night ended at 1AM when carol was DEAD DRUNK hahahaha drama rama then! This girl was mad crazy! Alright, gonna go edit the recent pictures! Huge chunk of 'em! Great day ahead!:)

TIRED

2010-05-20T23:50:00.001+08:00

I.AM.FUCKING.TIRED NOW! Wanted to blog initially but too tired my gawd......had a super long day. I don't even know what i am typing now.

Blog post to-be-continued...

Good night

Dad's birthday

2010-05-19T00:56:00.004+08:00

Hellooooooooooooo. Okay, just hung up the call with vina and uploaded the pictures! Great time to blog while sissy sits beside me playing the kiddish maplestory?! I thought maplestory was for the sec school kids.....but well, guess i'm wrong! z. Lame game anyway.

April 27th, 2010 Dad's birthday:)

Chloe trying to make a "funny/clown-ish" face and she thinks she look funny enough enlarging her nostrils hahahahhahaha my cutie pie!

We went for high tea at goodwoodpark:) Usually, we'd have birthday dinners together but mumsy and dad wanted a date out at night, so.......hehe

Mum&dad, looking blur-ish:(

Goodwoodpark

HI DARLING HEHE

cute

Birthday boy...okay boy sounds kiddish, birthday man

Sissy and lil sissy

Pretty mom and sissy:)

HAHAHA daddy looking amiable heheh

okay yes lah i know i look sick with minimal make-up:(

After tea, we walked around in town then we went to Domino's for their pizzas takeaway! Hehe niceeeeeeeee! I love their cinnamon stix!^^ Dad and mom headed out after sending us hm! Heh

Okay, i'm still jobless:( After sending out many resumes....still jobless. Sigh whatever. Anyway, i've been like maddddd busy recently! But still, found some time to shop and brought home some really good buys! Hehehehe i love my new maxi from river island!:D:D:D Okay, and i gonna meet vina&carol tomorrow for lunch&movie(P.S. JIAYING REPLY ME IF YOU'RE COMING TMR) and rush off for some rituals for my granddad. Oh yes, time to harvest my peas from "We Rule" hehehehe bye guys

P.S. Really feel like taking a tour to the lalang field!!!!!!!:(

busy beez

2010-05-16T01:43:00.004+08:00

Blogging@2am. It has been LONGGGGGGG since i blogged at this hour. Y'know school and all....bed time was at 11pm or earlier everyday before hols. Uni life sucks i swear. I'm only going year 2 and i can't waitto graduate! Anyway, yeah.....imma having holidays now! 3 FUCKING MONTHS LIKE FINALLY?! Hoho. &i just got a part-time job last week and next week is my last week hahaha that job suck lah except for the nice people/colleagues heheh.

&i managed to shop with all the mommies today! They bought a hell lot of things though we only manage to successfully shop at 313 and taka....for me, only a top and a pair of leggings. BUT, good news is i gna continue shop with mel TOMORROW! I need some serious retail therapy z. Gna head down to raffles city to pick my bridesmaid gown for Jing's wedding too. This upcoming week gna be fuckingmad pack. And i haven't yet take a serious look at the aussie's itinery.......and start planning what to wear(MOST IMPT of all other-whatevers) for the whole 2 weeks!

Also, i had the fuckingmad buffalo wings last night! Pictures up soon. The wings are like crazy shit......the cold beer tasted exceptionally good though. Ended up with a drunk driver who CAN'T drive anymore and yummy deserts@12am/haji lane. Heheheh.

Although i haven't had a SINGLE rest day ever since exams ended(been partying/having fun/nursing hangovers), I AM LOVING THIS SUMMER BREAK! And more to come!:D School is a bitch, so i gonna have as much fun as possible and utilise EVERYday! Okay...i'm left with a few hours of sleep...gonna hit the sack soon or i'll look fugly in every gown i try tomorrow.

P.S. hoi you...so now, supper over me? I'M NOT GNA W8 FOR YOUR REPLIES AND GNA HEAD TO BED AND YOUR FARM IS UGLY......BYE you-know-who-you-are

you

2010-05-13T13:30:00.001+08:00

I miss the old you..

DJ CM

2010-05-12T19:57:00.005+08:00

FIRST OF ALL....

I WOULD LIKE TO WISH MY DEAREST MUMMY A HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

Love you as a mom, love you as a friend, love you as a shopping buddy, love you always:)

&i just drove dad's car prolly an hour ago. Adrenaline rush max. Damn shiok.

April 2010

Met up with the girls hehe

my animals

Ion

Okay stop commenting on my eyebrows! I know i know! I GOT IT TRIMMED LAST WEEKEND ALR OK!

usual riverside drinking after town/before zouk

ribena

hoshy

2 bottles down(we started off with 3!)

carol and wtf face from vina hahhahhahahaha

drunk hosh couldn't stop hitting me!:(

hosh and i

hosh and vina

carol and i

hehe cutezzzzz

and finally....the toad

Then zouk for this dj cm. Suck ttm. Boo hoo.

so many posts to do srzly! ALSO, IM IN NEED OF JOBS/MONEY. Email me(kelly.swt@live.com) if there's any good/fun/high-paid jobs^^

2010-05-10T14:02:00.003+08:00

Mood going up and down these few days....guess it's the pms and finally, i managed to get stained today! So, hopefully these emotional swings can go away. Gonna attend the wake of my bud's dad. It's terrifying how much things and horror can happen within a split second. I love you, bud. Stay strong.

HOLIDAYSSSSSSS

2010-05-05T11:36:00.003+08:00

YAY YAY YAY DOUBLE YAYNESS!!!! FINALLY THE HOLIDAYS ARE HERE!!!!!!! Hahhahaa yeah i had my last paper on Monday! Holidays till AUGUST....whatcha say 'bout it?! Heh and i gonna(FINALLY) book my practical lessons today! I can't wait to pass my TP and drive srzly! Hhahaha seems far but i really hope i can at least book my TP before the holidays end!

Oops i think i gna wake carol up soon! Anyway, some random pictures from my iphone to share:

Sweetheart&me

Lucas and me

Hotpot yay yay

Okay bye hehe

Lady gaga amputated her legs purely for fashion purposes?!

2010-04-30T16:59:00.001+08:00

Is this fo' REAL?!

2010-04-28T23:23:00.003+08:00

You and me.

Me and you.

Am i risking for another heartbreak?

Bad April

2010-04-23T19:16:00.004+08:00

I think this month of April is a bad month:( I think i did badly for the replacement test. I can only handle 50% of the questions and IT IS BAD:( Sigh........

Did some retail therapy online, but still contemplating whether or not should i purchase this 10CM tall wedges. On a happier note, sissy brought new stuff back home(yeah this is one of the benefits of having a sister close to your age! hehehe) and boxes of new falsies. Yay.

AND I THINK MARK CHAO IS FRIGGING CHARMING.

Some pictures from lumix:

Dan Ryans with the group

Love the starters!!!!

B&J with lucas

Then zouk with carol

Met jiaying for awhile outside zouk:):):) & finally, a LITTLE drunk after soooo long. Y'know the countless numbers of sober nights..........

&gotto get back to the books. H8 STUDYING >(

EXAMS, again......

2010-04-19T15:59:00.003+08:00

WTF HE'S DUPER AWESOMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

A random picture.....okay i know i always post pictures from different albums(as in from different days) and never blog about it. I wish i could too!:( I wish i could do up a proper post.......after exams ok! Yes, it's the dreadful FINAL EXAM again. It gonna mark the end of semester 2 which means we gna all elevate to YEAR TWO! It's amazing, really!

AND I WONDER WHY AM I BLOGGING when my first paper is just two days away, yes on wednesday!:( Actually this paper is a sort of replacement test. Yeah, i got lousy grades for this paper last semester and gonna re-take it the day after tomorrow! Left with 3 more chapters........hopefully i'll still be "alive" after wednesday.......

Okay right now AFTER THE EXAMS, i want:

(1) to find a job(YES CAN YOU BELIEVE IT....URGH) after the exams! I hate working but no choice.....wanna save up for SO MUCH SO MUCH. I'm starting to hate asking money from daddy! Argh save me!

(2)AND AND AND to take up driving soon! Like...really soon! I passed my basic& final and started on one practical lesson MANY MONTHS BACK HAHAHHA gonna buck up and clear it once and for all! I can't wait to drive....like drive out with my babies to all sort of places like Sunset Grill for level 30 buffalo wings hahahahahaha a month plus back, weien introduce us this ULU AND EERIE place, we drove there LIKE IMMEDIATELY then BUT we got there LATE, just RIGHT AFTER the last order!:( Urgh i want spicy spicy buffalo wingsssss.....

(3)to picnic with the girls yes &i can't wait for the picnic with the babies! Good weather..picnic mat..NICE FOOD..polaroid..awesome cammys and the babygirls! SOON SOON SOON SET A DATE JIAYING YOU ARRANGE OK^^

Really have so much to do/want to do! Sigh can't wait for exams to be over and sometimes i really wish i can travel to where ever myself(yes, alone) without having to CONSIDER so much factors/people affecting and such.....urgh i guess you guys dont know what im blabbing about but nevermind. Irritating....

Okay gna mug now bye! Have a nice day!

2010-04-17T12:52:00.001+08:00

My week totally suck big time. Thanks my boy for staying beside me and your shoulder really came in handy last night HAHHAA okay i love you gna study now bye

2010-04-15T10:38:00.001+08:00

SO SCREWED. GOD BLESS ME TODAY PLEASE.

restless

2010-04-13T16:49:00.002+08:00

I think i'm always feeling restless!:( Like whenever i'm home, i just feel like lazing around. Does it happens to you too???????? I always feel like pushing my tutorials/assignments to somewhere(maybe the corner of the house) where i can never see them! But duper thanks to luke for accompany me the past few days, through all the deadlines of the projects and reports! Maybe not a few that little, but just all the times you were there for me!!!!!!!!!^^ Really appreciate it when you just sat down there playing my ds/your iphone games while i complete my assignments/accompanying me for moviesssssssss/sending me home despite how worn out and exhausted you were/woke up duper early in the morning with mere few hours of sleep to send me to school/EVERYTIME you'd nicely remove all the spring onions in my food/to wait patiently for me for lunch in spite of the fact that you were dead famished AND THE LIST GOES ON.........:)

&hotpot with him 2 weeks back!

NO proper shots of him, he can't stop moving

Gonna head out with the old clique tomorrow! Hope it'll be fun!:)))))) Mumsy is cooking CRABS and chicky wings for din din! Can't wait to have dinner! Heheheheh and i had KFC breakie this morning- NOTHING FANTASTIC...duper disappointed! One exception, the egg tarts are quite good! Okay gna write with chloe now......bye

2010-04-12T19:32:00.001+08:00

I wanna blog but photobucket is duper slow!

sometimes

2010-04-11T21:31:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, i really feel very very very inferior. Like..why am i not intelligent enough, why am i not pretty enough, why am i not understanding enough and the list goes on.

Can't help but feel sucky and lousy.

short post

2010-04-08T09:53:00.002+08:00

Help me click on my nuffy ads before reading this post okay?! Thanks y'all!:)

First of all......i gotto wish my babygirl a HAPPY HOLIDAY@TW!:D Have fun over there and remember to NOT stop eating! The amount of good food and street snacks is....urgh fuck i'm getting hungry now. I so so so wanna go back to taiwan and just spend a week over there EATING. Yes, eating! Heh okay lah whatever. Bon voyage, darling!:):):) We'll miss you but still have fun without you hahahahahahahhahaha okay lah loves!:)

Next, this post gna be short short chop chop cause' i gna bathe soon and meet luke for some studying! Hell yea, studying. Urgh damn no life right. But, nevermind! At least i've someone dear enough to study with me! Hehee it's at least better than me studying ALONE at home!

Oh yes! For the past 20 minutes, i thought my iphone just crashed on me early in the morning! The incident goes like this: I woke up to 5 texts, and i replied respectively. Then, this "iphone battery left with 20%" alert came. I ignored it and put my iphone aside because this 20% batt can actually last for DAMN long if you just leave it some where UNUSED. Then, 5 minutes(approx) later, i picked up my phone and it can't be on! Like just a black screen no matter how long you pressed on the home button! I tried to charge it for 10 minutes BUT NOTHING CAME OUT, NOT EVEN THE CHARGING SIGN. Just when i was so depressed over it, it lit up=.= damn iphone.

Okay i think i really NEED to bathe hahahahhahaha okay this post has ended just so abruptly. Bye.

Lazy sunday

2010-04-04T15:28:00.004+08:00

Help me click on my nuffy ads before reading this post okay?! Thanks y'all!:)

AHHHH imma so lazy now!:( Just completed my EL and NM report....and imma too RESTLESS to work on my NM portfolio though the deadline is nearing! Just uploaded the pictures i took from last last weekend to yesterday! Hundred over photos.....imma so LAZY to edit 'em!:( Actually, imma just lazy to do anything else except for sitting on my comfy couch and face my lappy.....and maybe exercise my little fingers on the keyboard.........

Neway, beside facing my lappy, imma playing words with friends with the lovergirls HAHAHAH peer influence much oh? Yeah, lucas asked me to download then i asked my girls and tweethearts to download....and i've got a list of friends to kill my boredom now hahahahaha especially during days like THIS! The girls can't deny that it helps to kill those fucking boredom and helps to get your brain to work a little! Hehehehe neways, my username is 'Kelly The Pro' HAHAHAHA wtf that was totally random lah. So, anyone using iphone AND who is playing this app can add me hohoho! Let's competeeeeeeee! 8-)

And did i mention i went Zouk last night? Guest dj was spinning at zouk and it was TOTALLY BORING.......the crowd were like mad high and i don't know why too?! LIKE....URGH MAD BORING WASTE OF TIME WASTE OF MONEY but, i get to spend time with the lovergirls! Also, i managed to spend some time with leejiaying before she fly to taiwan for holiday! Heh, so yesterday was considered quite fruitful still! Hehe

Yep, a picture from last night@zouk! Will upload the pictures soon after edits!:)

Also, i went Dempsey for dinner with yy, jeremy and carol weeks back!:) And i forgot the name of the restaurant....hehhhh

Hahaha okay this picture is random BUT my baby chloe is just SOOOO IRRESISTIBLY CUTE THAT I NEED TO POST THIS PICTURE TO SHARE WITH Y'ALL! HEHEHE it was taken when we went taiwan few years back! Hhehehehehehe BUT one thing, she look china-ish here z BUT STILL CUTE AND ADORABLE RIGHT? HEHEHE LOVE LOVE

Hahahaha okay lah imma a lil hungry now. Gonna find FOODDDDDDD. And i changed my blog header! HHHAA guess you guys noticed that too! Hehe nice right HAHAHAHA okay lah bye Good day ahead for y'all!

2010-04-02T10:24:00.001+08:00

Firstly, GOOD FRIDAY TO ALL!:DDDD Hehehe, click my nuffy add okay?! Loves!

&thanks ALL who added me over Words with Friends HAHAHAHA i think you guys are duper efficient! Hehehehe

I've been awake since 8am!:( Urgh, i need MORE sleep but i just can't get to sleep! Moreover, waking up to seeing a pimple on my face is fcking "awesome", at the glabella area somemore! It's so fcking obvious LAH:( Think i've to wear a cap/hat out later............

Okay enough of my ranting. Imma now waiting for dad&mom to be awake then we'll go for dim sum! Hehehehehe dim sum dim sum. &then should be catching Ju-on ltr! Like fcking JU-ON. I must be crazy to agree to @thepartypopper's request:(

Am browsing webbies as usual when imma bored! Let me introduce to all my favourite webby AT ALL TIMES (like, i'll browse it EVERYWHERE...be it on the bus, train, washroom hahhahaha) www.lovegivesmehope.com HAHAHA okay a lil retarded but you needa catch the short stories at the web! Some of it are really simple yet, true! Hahhahahahaha browsing that webby when you're MOST depressed really helps HAHAHA cause' it gives you hope like its URL! Hehehhehe:):)

" A few months ago I went on a trip to Paris.

I saw a woman with her friend who was blind. She helped him up the Eiffel Tower and when we all were close to the top he'd asked if they were there yet. At the top, he got down on one knee and proposed to her.

She said yes. Love is never blind. That GMH."

(adapted from www.lovegivesmehope.com)

Okay now some random visuals from February! My first shots using lumix 8-)

PUMPKIN

CUTESY MEOW

poker

darling CHLOE

JUST NICE, mumsy&dad rushing me to the showers. Heh that's all for this post! Toodles!

The usual friday Zouk

2010-03-31T18:35:00.006+08:00

Imma in dire need of distraction and hopefully, blogging will helps! Okay, the past few days were really taxing! Lived the life of a busy bee! Hahah, of course i didn't go around pollinating but i went around doing projects and even travelled to this burmese temple for my field trip! Talking about that, i must thank my babies for accompanying me down! Hahahahahah y'know imma such a blur star that i just can't travel to ulu places ALONE!

Last weekend was the first EVER SINCE I ENTERED NUS which i utilised the whole of it doing projects, heading to friends' place, smu, national library and many! I've never been so hardworking :\ hahahahahah but no choice, i gotto pull my CAPS higher this sem! Last semester was ATROCIOUS:( I think i've got the WORST result in the whole cohort! Imma serious! Z okay the weekends was totally exhausting but i'll say EVERYTHING IS WORTH IT!:) Especially after the oral presentation for biz comm yesterday!:):):) Really need to thank my super-awesome biz comm groupies!

Imma now done with my SE report, some how done with my EL report, NM report too! And imma going to finish the biz comm report with groupies tomorrow! Imma now left with my NM portfolio(sort of) and exams! Then....it'll be BINTAN trip with the lovelies(HOPEFULLY, 70%) in May and Aussie trip with family& coussies in June!!!!!! CAN'T.WAIT.FOR.IT.

Hahahahaha my mood is a tad better now!:D:D:D Okay some proper blogging now!

First week of March '10

Carol and i went to have our favourite food@fareast! Heh this foodstall sells awesome food LAH:) though it's always always always packed during meal times but we went there like...at 4pm? So, yay, no waiting time needed!

Duper duper duper spicy

Carol and i! 7 years and still going STRONG!:)

Met up with coussie yy! HEH

OH YES, HARDCORE OR WHAT? One bottle of cordon bleu and one scotch whisky! Hahahah but cordon bleu wasn't full lah, it was our left over bottle from '09! HAHAHAH

Hahahaha i think she gna kill me when she sees this picture! Sorry lah, my photoshop skills SUCKS:(

HAHAHA SOON WE FINISHED OUR CORDON BLEU..

Hohoho, my dear pat to accompany me throughout the night! HEHE

Carol lookin' over-exposed....i think i should think twice 'bout getting the external flash! Heh

Stupid mok being irritating THROUGHOUT THE NIGHT. And yeah, we played DRINKING POKER to kill the whisky! It was totally killer cause' i LOST!:( Zak totally suck at poker! That idiot wanted to team up with me BUT HIS LOUSY SKILLS TOTALLY.....hahahahahhaha!

DRUNK.

Nicol and i forever arguing between our blackberry and iphone! Hahahahahahah i would love to get a berry but iphone is just TOO cool with ALL THE APPS! Heheheh

Hohoho x

I forgot what i was laughing over, but mok is just fcking entertaining LOOOOL

AND WHISKY DOWN! HAHAHAHA!

Still standing strong after TWO bottles, so we went winebar to get SUPER FLAMING! Hahahahahahah crazy shit, we still stood there DOODLING while waiting for our drinks! Hahahahah! Just in case you guys dont know what imma talking about--Doodle Jump is a damn fun iphone app! Hehehehe my highest score is 40 over thousand......HAHAHAH

Happy boy hugging two girls LOOOOL

Then, what's more? We went to the dance floor and disgusting supper with the rest! Cabbed home with carol, nicol and zak aftermath! Oh yes, zak was fcking noisy on the cab! I can't even rest properly! Hahahahah!

Alright, guess that's 'bout it for this entry!:) Good night y'all!

:(

2010-03-23T21:14:00.002+08:00

Feeling emotional these few days. Guess it's the period and all the stress from the school work. But i really really detest the way you treat me. Things were much better in the past. When we got together, I felt like your girlfriend, your everything..someone important enough to you. When we broke up, I felt bad but at least, I felt that i’m not nobody, I was at least your ex girlfriend. Now, I felt worse. I feel like I’m nothing. Nothing at all. Someone you could live without. Someone you can be happy without. Someone who is nvr the reason why you smiled. I feel like shit.
You made me feel like one.

2010-03-20T13:08:00.000+08:00

MAJOR HANGOVER.

topple it over

2010-03-19T14:44:00.002+08:00

Talking to @thepartypopper over adium now.
Status: exhilarated

Picture taken: outside zouk....my favourite picture of the whole lot taken last weekend!:D

Hohohoho! Imma home from school! FINALLY, THE FAVOURITE DAY(for all, i suppose!) IS HERE! Hahahaahah am feeling excited now, excited for timbre's stuffed mushrooms and buffalo wingsssssssssss yay! Heh what's up for you guys on a friday night?! It's gna be a super fattening meal@timbre and then zouk again i guess? Hohoho. Imma still in a chirpy mood(but even chirpier now!), yay that's good.

But the thought of tomorrow totally..urgh. Two project meetings. 10am to 10pm. Well, the life of a typical nus student..........alright....i don't know what to type fo' now.......maybe i should just end this post and stone in front of my the two wardrobes and reflect upon the insignificant amount of clothes i have! OKAY BYE

2010-03-16T21:24:00.004+08:00

Hohoho, i just ordered Macdonalds together with Hot n' Spicy shakey fries! Hehehehe @carolynkia the bumble bee is heading over for quick lunch then off to woodlands for her project meeting! Imma in an extremely chirpy mood from the start of the day till now, no particular reasons though 8-)

Heh, and i need some serious serious shopping! Ahhh, i think i'm so detached from the world now, with fugly looking clothes. But it's just so hard to sieve some time out for retail therapy, i think all my project(different projects z) group members will just kill me HA. Neways, though the projects are really tough and stuff, but imma glad i've still got nice and helpful group members to share the huge burden! Unlike my poor jiaying handling the GROUP project INDIVIDUALLY, aye...she just happens to fall into the wrong group z never mind, work hard kay sweetheart!

Okay, i've decided to skip those clubbing&hotel stayover entries to this FIRST cause' i feel like blogging something healthier? Haahahhaha wth. Nevermind, here it goes..

Headed out with @melodymaddy last weekend!
And XW hongkong cafe was our last resort, argh:( and only managed to take this only picture of our food hahahahha i was just too hungry lah!

Then to millenia walk for frolick and happened to bump into maddy's friend's gig or something! We screamed upon hearing decode hahahahhahaahh not to mention, she's a hardcore paramore fan. Okay, hi maddy!:)

Yay, frolick with loadssss of toppings!

Been long since i cam-whored heh

Hohohoho

my dear dear girl

&random

& last shot, okay my fat face i know:(

Then, went back to maddy's place for dinner buffet! Heh, guess that's was about all? Okay gna call up @carolynkia, she's taking TOO long! Bye!

hotpot and supperclub

2010-03-14T10:49:00.005+08:00

February'10 hotpot and supperclub with the girls(fell on different days!)

Heh had our reunion dinner just before chinese new year! I love this hotpot restaurant JUST one (big)thing about it, they don't provide my favourite meatballs! They did LAH but it's not the kind i like, aiya...only my girls know wtf im talking about z

Okay. Missing me and vinalee in the picture! And headed home after dinner, cause' we've all got work/school the next day z

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Then, met up with the animals again! Yeah, at the usual boring hk cafe 8-)

Headed down to supper after dinner!
Vina&i!

The cat and the starfish

Hahahahahah i love this picture lah!

:d

With the bouncers, i forgot why we had this picture taken but whatever lah hahahahaha

Making our own drinks LOOOL

I know my eyes look damn cockwtf here z

Animals@supper. Whatcha say?!

Peachy martini

Then arena for supper was way tooooooo BORING! Yes, and the crowd was damn weird. Like all the underage?! Idk, they look like z

Jiaying&i

AND zirca

Okay that's about all? Nothing REALLY happening that night. Except for the part the joker came knocking at our doors and apologised HAHAHAH inside joke. And i think this post is kinda boring hahahahahhah ok whatever

Have a good day ahead, all! 8-)

Trust

2010-03-12T13:00:00.001+08:00

I wonder if there's this full, whole and explicit trust among individuals. Individuals among families, friends and lovers. Trust that they will never leave, trust that they will never hurt you, trust that they will not harm you, trust that they will protect you, trust that they'll hold your hand through the stormy weathers and cheer for you when are successful, trust that the love will always be there, trust that they will always trust you like how you trust them. And trust that they'll never break your heart even if you once broke theirs.

I guess not.

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chloe's 5th

2010-03-11T11:01:00.003+08:00

HELLO HUMANS. Yay, finally a decent post! Hahahaha, i really need to clear all the '09 december posts before i move on to the posts in twenty ten! The month of '09 december was totally eventful and fun hahahahaha with the many hotel stays, birthdays and parties! Hehehehe

'09 December--Chloe's 5th

Well, it was CHLOE'S FIFTH BIRTHDAY HEH HEH HEH yes yes yes the luge! Her first time sitting the luge though! Hahahahahah that scaredy cat didn't want to talk and went munching her chocolate sticks non-stop! Hahahahah!

Yeah, then to the beach! Like duh?! How can we give the beach a miss when we are at SENTOSA?! HEHE

OMG SUCHA CUTIE! HAHHAHAA she was trying hard to make a snow(SAND ACTUALLY)man. Hhahahahaaha CUTE PICTURE NO.1

CUTE PICTURE NO.2

AND TADAHHHH! SNOW(SAND)MAN! HAHHAA

CUTE PICTURE NO.3 my poor sweetie, sun was too glaring for her!

CUTE PICTURE NO.4

Yeah me and yy. Say cheezeeeee!:D

CUTE PICTURE NO.5 HEHEHE SHE WAS DAMN HAPPY LA!:D

Say hi to the losers! Hahahahhahaha

CUTE PICTURE NO.6 YES ALL WET, FINALLY!

CUTE PICTURE NO.7 FUN AT BEACH, YEAH ISN'T THAT OBVIOUS HEH

HAHAHA loser-ish. Yeah chloe was totally unaware of it! Sorry sweet heart! hahahahaha!

Then, jap food@sushi tei for dinner and i don't know why are the pictures MISSING! Hahhaaha nevermind then HOME SWEET HOME. &i only uploaded some pictures because photobucket was so effing lag! Heh nevermind, at least it's not another wordy post! This has got some visuals okay! Heh okay, gna go laze around in the house and hopefully get some motivation from dont-know-what to start working on the assignments! AND macdonalds has got this NEW spicy and whatever fries AHHH i wanna TRY! Somebody, please bring me out for Mac! hehehehe okay.........Good day ahead for all!:):):)

going a month

2010-03-10T23:13:00.003+08:00

I wanted to make a post with the supperclub pictures but the uploading is way too slowwwwww. Imma blog and upload at the same time and hopefully before the end of this entry, the pictures will be done? Okay, the time of the month is coming-soon and that explains the emotional downturn these two days and i predict that it'll persist for quite a few days. Damn. Those buddies were sweet enough to even deliver cakes up to my house, love you guys for that okay?!

We exchanged a few texts these few days and i WAS still chirping over the fact that we communicated?! But....things just got kinda screwed up. I think i should just stop dreaming or fantasizing over those impossibles. Move along can i?! Yeah, those girls of mine will go...be happy okay?! Think of your friends, the close ones and your family, there wouldnt want to see you in such a state yada yada. But, sometimes, it just isn't that easy. I'm sad, i'm just feeling so sad. That's all. No exaggerated words needed, just sad.

And just hang up the call with glenn, i think he made me feel worse. Damn.
"all he's doing now is to make you feel better, that's all, nothing else." I guess i should just sleep it off, hopefully all the depression will go away.....nights world.

2010-03-10T11:14:00.000+08:00

It's so hard to stay when you keep pushing me away.
It's so hard to stay when there are various reasons for me to give this up, yet only one for me to hold on.

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killer schoolwork

2010-03-08T18:32:00.003+08:00

NM assignments are sucha killer, especially the latest one. Damn. Two days to complete it. Gna be out for dinner ltr and tomorrow=project meeting for the whole day(hellayes)

AHH. DAMN SCHOOLWORK. I NEED A BREAK. FUCK.

And the r/s problem thang is still there. Fuck, when can i stop thinking of you just like how you stopped thinking of me and decided to move on from there!_l_

2010-03-04T23:15:00.002+08:00

I'm waiting for bud's call now. Was talking to him earlier on.
He: "Are you alright?"
Me: "Yes....."
He: "It's alright not to be okay. It's really alright. At least, in front of me, you need not be okay."
Me: Stayed silent, was tearing actually. Fuck.
He: "Are you in your room?"
Me: "Yes...."
He: "Okay, then you can cry comfortably.."

You don't know how much i need this.

Then, i felt better awhile later, after telling him EVERYTHING that happened. Then, i asked him about his girlfriend. His tone changed, to a sweet one. He said they gonna go till the end. I felt REALLY REALLY HAPPY for him when he told me confidently that the girl is his, and will always be. I'm really happy for you, bud:)

sixteen days

2010-03-04T20:04:00.006+08:00

updated version

I don't know why do you claimed that you love me when you don't.
What's with the pretense?

2010-03-01T21:38:00.000+08:00

Why don't your feelings stay?..:(